One-shot: Playing Favorites

Title: Playing Favorites
Author: Seylin
Summary: Do teachers ship their students? Let’s find out…
Rating: PG
Warning: Slash. (Jasper/Seth).
Disclaimer: This story is based on characters and situations created and owned by Stephenie Meyer. No money is being made from the writing of this work.
A/N: This was a challenge from lightshadowverisimilitude (tumblr), based on this prompt: “We have to partner up in our health class to look after a robot baby and Oh GOD it’s CRYING again PLEASE just stop WHY did we agree to this hell?” She wrote a story I challenged her too as well! Be sure to check it out!
Playing Favorites

Seth entered the science classroom where his health class had been moved to, relocated due to a leaking roof issue, with a bit of hesitation. On the large desk at the front of the classroom lay ten doll-like figures. He had been dreading this section of the course ever since he had seen it on the syllabus the first day. Yeah, he wanted kids but not for at least another ten years, he was only 19! He eyed the dolls for a moment before continuing on to a lab table toward the back of the class. At least they would have bigger desks in this room…Collapse )

Happy 4th Whoo! -twirls finger-

Why not celebrate the 4th with a little whine/rant?

It’s been 8 months since my last “journal” post. I’m posting this to LJ because I figure no one will really see it. I don’t really know anyone who still follows me that actively checks LJ. Yeah, I could make it a private entry but there’s something very freeing knowing that it’s out there.

So this weekend is the 4th of July. I have been invited to my uncle/aunt’s place on the river to celebrate and watch fireworks. I went last year and it was fun, my favorite part was going out on the pontoon. I don’t think we’ll get to do that this year though, we’ve had a lot of rain this past week and I’ve heard the river is quite high. When I was invited, I asked my aunt if it was okay for my Dad and his gf to come, I know the gf is a tough subject with my Mom being gone and all, hell, it’s tough for me and they’ve been going out for over a year now. But, I didn’t want to step on any toes. My aunt said it was fine and two days later my Gran called and said it was okay with her, which was a pretty big step for her. So earlier this week, I asked my Dad if they were going to come with me and he said probably not, that he just didn’t feel comfortable. In a way, I get this; it’s weird without my Mom. But in other ways I think it’s dumb. This is Mom’s family sure, but my parents were married for over 30 years, these people were Dad’s family for those years. By the end of the conversation he said “I don’t know, we might”. I hope they do because I honestly don’t want to go alone. But, I haven’t pressed it. If I have to go alone, so be it. I’ll just feel awkward by myself.

Why would I feel awkward you may wonder? Well, things changed since my Mom died. Of course they did. Some things though…not for the better. I’ve never had a good relationship with my gran, I would call it strained at best. I’m not a favorite grandkid, that honor goes to my two of my uncle’s kids. When I was younger I was in T-ball, I think my gran came to maybe one or two of my games. My uncle’s boys? She went to every single one unless it was too far away. My uncle’s girls? They have lived in St. Louis for the majority of my life but my gran would take off 2-3 weekends a month to go see them. Why does this make me feel rotten? Because I live 30 minutes away from her. A 6 hour drive vs. driving 30 minutes across the county, yeah it left me feeling like I wasn’t loved as much as them.

So, this week, Thursday to be exact, I called my great aunt (my gran’s sister who is more like my gran than my gran is) because she was supposed to have had a doctor’s appointment that day and I was calling to make sure everything was okay. Turns out it was just blood work but I didn’t know about that. So when I asked what she was doing she said she was sitting there talking to my gran and my girl cousins from St. Louis, who are in for the 4th. My response? “Oh.” Yeah, it immediately hurt because they have to drive by my house to get to my great aunt’s house and yet they didn’t bother to stop. I don’t see my cousins from St. Louis much because…well, they’re in St. Louis and they have lives there, I saw them Derby weekend for a couple of hours but before that? I don’t know. I didn’t even see them at Christmas because they were here and gone before I knew it.

Anyway, in the background I can hear my gran talking and she’s saying how she tried to call me but I didn’t answer. No one called the home phone, #1 it didn’t ring, #2 even if it did I would see it on the caller ID. I had no missed calls or voicemails on my cell phone. Now, it’s totally possible that a call wouldn’t show up, typically this happens when I don’t have service but I have anywhere from 3-4 bars where I was in my house at the time she said she tried to call. But whatever. She said they would come by on their way home. Okay. So I went around, cleaning up a little bit. Just before 7 I get a call from them. They “stayed too late” at my great aunt’s and won’t be stopping. I honestly wasn’t surprised and I tried not to be disappointed but you know what? It hurt. It still hurts. When I talked to my great aunt yesterday she asked if they stopped and I told her no, she didn’t have very nice things to say about my gran.

It’ll also be uncomfortable because I’m suspecting my other aunt will be there tonight. Hopefully she won’t confront me about my political opinions, which we have gotten into two arguments about on Facebook this year. The biggest one being over abortion and how I’m pro-choice. She thinks this is wrong and “worries for my salvation”. I will probably just say hi and move on. I’m not going to change her mind and she’s not going to change mine.

Alright, enough with my family drama. I wasn’t able to find a job for the summer this year. I’ve actually been applying for jobs that would get me away from teaching since February with no luck. I still like being in a school setting but students just don’t have respect for teachers anymore. I get so frustrated with the kids asking why they have to be in school, other than it being the law. So many aren’t interested in learning, or rather they aren’t interested in putting work into learning. I’m pretty sure most kids want you to just give them the grade without them doing the work…sorry, not how it works. At least my Dad knows that I’m trying so he hasn’t pushed the issue too much.

Back around April, my ex-boss, who I haven’t really talked to since she didn’t show up at my party last year, emailed me and told me about a English position that would be opening up at a school in a nearby county. I’d already decided that I didn’t want to teach, it’s just not for me. And, after talking to the principal at the school I was subbing at, who had taught at that school, decided it was not a place I wanted to be. Well, my ex-boss got pissed at me. She told me that I needed to move out of my Dad’s house and make my own connections. She asked me what would happen if I wanted to have “an overnight date”. #1, why would I move out to somewhere I have to pay rent when my Dad lets me live with him for free as long as I pay on my student loans and take care of things around the house? #2, that is none of her business.

As much as I don’t want to, I guess I’ll be subbing again this year. At least it pays pretty well. After just a month I should have enough to pay off about $5,000 of my loans, then I’ll just have $28,000 left. By the end of the school year, I could have enough saved up to pay off that $8,000 if I’m smart with my money.

I feel like I’ve been losing friends like crazy. I live in a very rural area, most friends I had in HS have moved away and my college friends all live at least an hour away. One person I considered a best friend stopped talking to me and I don’t know why. If I go in where she works and we see each other she acts like nothing has changed and laments on how we haven’t been able to get together. Well, I’ve texted and she never replies so at the beginning of the year, I put the ball in her court, I’m not going to beg to be someone’s friend. Another person I’ve been friends with since middle school, well, I found out she was talking about me behind my back and saying very mean things. So, I broke ties there. She’s been trying to contact me, claiming she did nothing but I can’t say anything back without giving away the person who clued me in and they’ve asked me not to. Beyond that, it’s hard to remain close to someone who lives hours away. My bestie and I make it work but I really wish we could hang out more than one day every three months or so.

I’m still watching Free! and Sailor Moon Crystal. My internet is super slow at home so it takes about 2 hours to watch one episode, averaging 3 refreshes. Of course, putting off watching for the past couple of months works to my advantage. If word is correct, SMC is going to have 26 episodes and 25 should be posted either this week or next, so I might just switch to Free! for a bit because I think it’s complete, or at least the second season is. I finished Legend of Korra, it was awesome, though I didn’t love it as much as ATLA.

I’ve finished Once Upon a Time up to S4, been waiting for it to be available on Netflix, looks like it’ll be out in August so not too much longer to wait. My cousin and I have been watching Teen Wolf; I think we’re ready for S4. I couldn’t get into Hannibal so I took it off my list. I really need to watch Sherlock.

I ended up challenging myself to 150 books this year. I’m currently on #81 for the year.

So yeah…my life isn’t too happy right now. I can only hope it gets better.

One-shot: Cowboy Take Me Away V2

Title: Cowboy Take Me Away

Author: ElvenAvari

Summary: Version 2 of Jasper & Seth’s wedding. Seth is stressed out over wedding plans. Jasper proposes a solution.

Rating: G

Disclaimer: This story is based on characters and situations created and owned by Stephenie Meyer. Lilliana belongs to starry-nights88 from her “Imprinting” series.

A/N: As I was posting my Jaspeth drabbles/stories to my AO3, I realized that I had never written Jasper & Seth’s wedding. I know, crazy. So I set down to do that, got 3 or so pages in and got stuck. I asked my beta for some advice and she made some suggestions. One of the suggestions was instead of a traditional wedding, they just go to a courthouse and be married there. I had never thought of this but now I did, and the more I thought about it, the more it fit Jaspeth. So, I finished the traditional wedding (since I already had most of it) and then I wrote this, less traditional version. All depends on your taste of which you prefer, but I’m posting both so you can decide. Enjoy!

Cowboy Take Me Away

Version 2

Seth blinked slowly, sucking in a deep breath through his nose. It was much dimmer now than when he had closed his eyes, which was saying something given how darkly tinted the windows on Jasper’s Mustang were. He stretched with a yawn, his neck and back popping in the process. Jasper’s hand caught his as he settled into a more comfortable position. Seth smiled as he felt Jasper’s thumb running over the ring that he now wore on his left ring finger.

“You were tired,” Jasper stated.

“Exhausted. Where are we?” Seth asked. He looked out the window but could only see darkness, maybe a cactus now and then. Jasper had been driving for ten hours, maybe more, Seth didn’t ask how fast he was driving. They had left after the reception had finally ended, driving until about 5am before stopping to rest until noon.

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One-shot: Cowboy Take Me Away V1

Title: Cowboy Take Me Away

Author: ElvenAvari

Summary: Version 1 of Jasper & Seth's wedding. Two years of planning has come to this.

Rating: G

Disclaimer: This story is based on characters and situations created and owned by Stephenie Meyer. Lilliana belongs to starry-nights88 from her "Imprinting" series.

A/N: As I was posting my Jaspeth drabbles/stories to my AO3, I realized that I had never written Jasper & Seth’s wedding. I know, crazy. So I sat down to do that, got 3 or so pages in and got stuck. I asked my beta for some advice and she made some suggestions. One of the suggestions was instead of a traditional wedding, they just go to a courthouse and be married there. I had never thought of this but now I did, and the more I thought about it, the more it fit Jaspeth. So, I finished the traditional wedding (since I already had most of it) and then I wrote a less traditional version. All depends on your taste of which you prefer, but I’m posting both so you can decide. Enjoy!

Cowboy Take Me Away
Version 1

Seth gave Rosalie an incredulous look. “You want us to what?” They had been planning this wedding off and on for the better part of two years but this was the first time he had heard anything about being kept apart before the wedding.

“It’s just a day,” Rosalie said rolling her eyes. “Call it an old school tradition. Surely you can stand to be apart for a day when you have the rest of your lives right?”

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Drabble: A Tale of Two Voices

Fandom: The Mortal Instruments
Pairing: Magnus/Alec
Prompt: Alec's voice and the things it does to Magnus.

A voice could do interesting things, use a certain tone and one could make a person raving mad or make them completely lose themselves. Amazing how a certain voice could make him come undone…without even trying! Magnus let his cat-like golden eyes fall closed as he stroked himself. His fingers tightened as they reached the head of his cock, thumb smearing the pre-cum that had leaked out before his hand slid back down.Collapse )


Bookend Review 2014

Bookend Review 2014

So it turns out that student teaching kept me plenty busy, but not so busy that I couldn’t read around 25 books while doing it. I applied for jobs…didn’t get jobs. So my fall was spent subbing, which means lots of reading time, especially in high school classes where I don’t have to repeat myself tons of times. As such I was able to read a total of 101 books in 2014, I probably could have squeezed another in there but I decided to just relax, plus I got sick and have issues concentrating on things when I’m sick.

My goal for next year is going to be 150 books. I plan to read more manga, which some consider books and others don’t. As long as it’s over 100 pages, I count it. Onto the books and reviews!

Start: 1/1/14

End: 12/18/14

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Hey Everyone

Dropping in 6 months since my last life post to give you an update. 6 months ago I had just finished student teaching and had applied for a job. I didn't get the job, didn't even get called for an interview. I was pretty disappointed about the lack of interview. But, what are you going to do? I also didn't get my summer job back, quite a bit of drama related to that...this is what I posted on FB back then:

"I am trying very hard not to be angry or disappointed...very, very hard... but I think I'm losing this battle. On April 16th I sent an email to professors and co-workers about having a celebration party to honor the completion of my student teaching. Sue me, but I thought this was a big deal. Until this morning I had nearly 15 people who had replied back or told me they were coming. Guess how many people showed up? 6. Yeah, SIX. Liz is the only one from KSU that showed. I did have an email from two professors when I woke up this morning that they couldn't come due to a meeting...who has a meeting on a Sunday and last minute at that? But no one else bothered to contact me. Everyone was supposed to be here at 1pm for a cookout. At 1:20 my CT sends me a text saying sorry but she wouldn't be here either.

I cannot express how rude it is to make a commitment and then not show for it, especially without getting into contact with the person expecting you. I had so much food I had prepared and if Liz hadn't come it would have gone to waste. Thankfully she is going to take it to work with her tonight

I don't have confirmation but I suspect my ex-boss knew I wouldn't be getting my summer job back and thus spread the word to the other professors. I was upset about not getting my summer job back after my ex-boss told me all semester that she was 98% sure I would but in the grand picture of things...it was not related to me celebrating being finished with student teaching.

Thankfully I found a job helping out with the summer school program that I had done my student teaching at. It was a shorter time frame but I made $5 more an hour than what I was at my old summer job. Since summer I have been substitute teaching at that school and I just signed up in another district so I've been pretty busy. It's a good thing the bigger district just went on fall break this week though, I felt the inklings of strep throat on Friday and now that it's Monday, I'm sure that's what it is. I'm taking anti-biotics in hopes of kicking it before it gets bad. If I'm not better by Wednesday morning I'll have to get up and go to the doctor.

How's the writing going? I get asked this a lot but one person. Simple answer? It's not. I've been stuck in quite a bit of writers block since about June. The most writing I've done is revisions on A Couple Takes Two. I have an amazing beta, but she has been busy too. I'm hoping this story might get done by the end of the year, fingers crossed. I have written a couple of drabbles in the past month, so maybe I'm coming out of my writers block. I have this one drabble that came to mind, I've been writing it on my phone as I have spare moments. At first it was going to be something simple and then as I was laying down for a nap this afternoon I had another idea...and then another for it. We'll see how that goes.

I think the biggest contributor to my writers block is depression. As most of you know, my mom passed away last year and my life has changed drastically since then. Most days are okay but then there are days that it just hits me and all I want to do is sit in the quiet, dark of my house.

In other news, I've been getting back into anime. My cousin had me watch Black Butler over the summer. Loved the first season, liked the second season, loved the continuation of the first season with "Book of Circus". I've also watched the first season of Free! And I've been watching Sailor Moon Crystal. I finished reading the Sailor Moon manga, I'm working on reading the Black Butler one. I'm one of those people that likes to actually buy volumes of manga vs. reading it online, mostly because my internet takes longer to load a page than it does to read it. I found out a couple of days ago that Nick has released the new season of Legend of Korra so I've started watching that too.

I have gotten up to S3 of Once Upon a Time but when I originally added it on Netflix, it wasn't out yet so it's behind Teen Wolf and Hannibal. I watched Rock of Ages recently, I didn't know it was a musical... but I was pleasantly surprised by how much I liked it... minus Alec Baldwin's parts. The scene between him and Russell Brand...so ridiculous.

Let's see...am I missing anything? Oh! I finished my reading goal a full 3 months early, so now anything I read is just extra. Since I'm getting back into manga, I think I'll challenge myself to more books next year, maybe 150 or 200. I'll post my book end review closer to the end of the year.

I'm mostly on Tumblr these days. If you want to follow me, you can find me at "elvenavari".

And that's my life. See ya again at the end of the year!